BIOBaby: The Possibility of Jack
June 17, 2009 by nina
Filed under Blog It Out, Baby
We put a lot of time, effort, and money into Jack’s nursery. We also put a lot of love into it. We obsessed over getting the shades of blue and brown just right. I spent months agonizing over the furniture.
The end result?
He spends very little time in it. Like, almost none. I’m not that bothered by it. He’s still young. There will be plenty of time for him to build forts, not make his bed, and hide pornos in it.
I do get this bittersweet feeling any time I go in it though. See, it has this smell. I’m not sure if it’s the new furniture or all the baby stuff, but it has this smell unlike any other room in the house. It smells fresh and clean and quiet. It smells like newness.
And so every time I go in there it takes me back to this time last year when we wondered about our baby boy and what he’d look like. We wondered what he’d be like. We wondered if he’d like his room and us. We avoided themes of animals and planes or sports. Instead, it seemed better to let him discover those things on his own and decide what he liked and what would fill his living space. We were so anxious and curious during this time.
When I go in there now, I have those feelings all over again and it’s like he’s not here yet. I get to be an expectant mother again and he is back inside of me safe and warm. He can’t skin his knee or bump his head. I don’t have to worry about choking hazards or school yard bullies.
And then I feel guilty for loving that smell and swimming in that time. Because he’s here and he is beautiful. He is no longer faceless. He has personality and dislikes. He has attitude and preference. He is lovable and difficult. He is here. And it is work.
All of the possibility now has shape. It is real. And it is scary.
Nina is a 34-year-old mother, wife and writer who spends her days blogging, studying, changing diapers and watching ridiculous amounts of TV. She currently resides in Atlanta, Georgia, with her husband, two children and three TiVos.
Awwww. The decor is gorgeous and I know what you mean. That's why as mothers we have to enjoy every moment. Litterally. Amari is so terrible right now but I have to keep reminding myself that this terrible two stage is going to fly by so fast, just as his baby moments have. Don't you miss Kali as a baby and her idenpendence is mind-boggling. She's still your lil girl and Jack will soon be a MAN! LOL
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LikeI've been gone so long; I completely missed your branching out and shit.
The good thing about kids at his age; they're like wet clay. You can shape him any which way you want... but not too hard. Just leave a trail of food leading into there and he'll go right in... how telling is it that I suggest treating your kid like an animal?
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LikeYou guys did a good job with Jack's room. It turned out really great.
Isn't it funny how you invest all that time in the nursery and they hardly ever use it as infants? But still I've always gotten joy from taking the time to decorate with each of my children.
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LikeI was thinking about that last night, enjoying this pregnancy and that feeling of having the baby be so close to me, all of the possibility...and yeah, wow, it is alot easier to care for the babies when they are still in the papoose instead of running aroung throwing themselves at you and the world with all that hunger for living they have!
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LikeJack's room is pretty fab. The best part is that it is a boy's room that will grow with him.
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LikeThat, and the polka dots.
You know I always love those the mostest.
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LikeThat was so sweet. I know what you are feeling. I try to get Olivia to hang out in her room. I love the end result of her room its sweet and different.
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LikeThe nursery is still my favorite room in the house. And of all the painting we've done, I'm most proud of that outcome.
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LikeDo kids still build forts?
I hope so.
I remember some good times building forts from blankets and other stuff around the house.
Did anyone watch Births Beyond Belief on Discovery Health last night? http://health.discovery.com/tv/baby-week/births-be...
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LikeKali loves building blanket and pillow forts. I did too as a kid.
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Likehello, nothing real to add to the topic at hand, just wanted to drop by and leave a bit o'love!
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LikeLOVE!
Where are you in BSG?
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LikeI haven't even gotten to Season 2 yet, b/c they are backed up!!! hahahaha
looks like I picked the wrong time to become a fan!!!
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LikeI just noticed that the other day when I went in there to get him an outfit it smells totally different than anywhere in the house.
Also it will probably be my porn that he steals from me and hides in his room.
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LikeIt has a special feel/smell to it.
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LikeThe porn? heh.
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LikeDoes this mean I have to hide my porn when you guys come over?
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LikeThat was so sweet. We just moved a couple of weeks ago, so we get to (have to) decorate Alanna's room all over again. Oddly enough, I feel as if I can do more now, even though she uses the room. I don't know - maybe I feel more confident in what I had decided and can now expand on it. We, too, stuck with just a color theme. I'm waiting for her to discover her favorite things on her own. Right now, it's Hi-5 on Discovery Kids. She starts dancing as soon as she hears the switch to On-Demand.
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LikeI can't wait to see all that Jack gets in to. So far, he's completely different than Kali was at the same age so I'm curious to see what kind of kid he develops into.
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Like...and again I am reminded of what a brilliant writer you are! I still look at Dei and get freaked out that she is her own person...she is supposed to be ME, right, I grew her inside of me, right...yeah, no...doesnt work like that does it.
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LikeWhy thank you!
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