BIOBaby: Crying Over Spilt Milk

I pumped about 8oz. of breast milk, some of which Donny immediately fed to Jack via a bottle. Jack had a few ounces and then Donny sat him up to burp him. When he did so he also managed to spill the remainder of the breast milk all over our bed. It seems the bottle he was using has a feature that allows you to control the flow of the milk by turning the bottom of the bottle. Donny must have had it too loose because the next thing you know the fruits of my labor became a puddle on the bed.

I lost my shit. I yelled and I cried. If cow’s milk were $10 a gallon I still wouldn’t have thrown such a fit had he spilled that all over the bed. But my milk. Well, that’s liquid gold. I don’t pump that shit for fun. I’m proud of every drop! I pump to keep up my supply, relieve pressure while Jack is sleeping, and store bottles so that once or twice a day my nipples can get a break and Donny can spend some quality feeding time with his son.

I know it was the hormones, but still… you can’t just go spilling a woman’s breast milk like that. That ain’t right.

Last night Jack went down for the final time a little after midnight and slept until… 6:30am! I was so shocked and relieved. Of course, the only problem was that I woke up around 4am so engorged I had to pump. I just knew that by the time I was done he’d wake up but he didn’t. I pumped, went back to sleep, and got another 2 hours. Woohoo!

I haven’t been doing the Baby Wise routine as strictly as it suggests. We started it in earnest on Saturday, but on Sunday we had family over all day so it was kind of hard to stay on track. I don’t know what to attribute last night’s 6 hour sleep to, but I’ll take it. It may just be a fluke. We’ll see how it goes tonight.

Finally, Jack has this funny/weird little thing he does and I’ve been meaning to write about it.  After having him home for a day or two I noticed that he would watch me, but only when I wasn’t looking at him. There’d be times when he’d be next to me either sleeping or falling asleep and I’d turn to look at him and catch him staring at me. But the moment I turned my head towards him, he’d snap his eyes shut. Donny and Kali thought I was crazy until Donny noticed him doing it. He was changing Jack’s diaper and noticed Jack staring at me (I was watching TV.) When I turned my head to Jack he quickly closed his eyes. Donny started laughing. It was like a little school boy with a crush on a girl. It’s okay. I’m crushing on him too.